Girls from my secondary gang
asked me something special!
about Me and Him.

Asking why I never tell them.
I do not want them to worry about me.
Well,
perhaps,
another reason is,
I hope..
the lesser people known
the better??

My tears were rushing out
while I was reading the comment she posted..
The concerning,
caring, and
empathy
can be feel in my heart.

Tears dropped because of him?
Or touched cause of my friends' concern?
HAHA!
i have no idea at all!

Only people who loved with true-hearted,
and got hurt before,
can exactly know how I feel..

Day 53

Today is a public holiday for Melaka
Early in the morning,
i feel free and lazy to do my revision!

My mind
AGAIN,
started to think about him...
everyday and every night
my mind is all about him
recall the sweet moment and time we have before





He has been that caring and loving me
DEEPLY
and it makes me thought that
he is the only one in my life..

But now,
all have GONE
the passion in his heart
the enthusiasm in his heart
and the affair in his heart..
All these are not belong to me anymore
perhaps they have found their owner?

My heart is dying
crying
bleeding
and suffering..
This is too bad for me!

My tears drop without my own control
non-stop sometimes
just because of him
He is the only reason
drive me into emo mood
and refuse to talk to others..



What I should do?
I just able to blame myself
blame that why am I that stupid?
WHY should I love a person super, duper n hyper deeply?
WHY my world seem like all is about him?
WHY am i such dependent to him??

Honestly,
my heart still with him
I'm still loving him
as much as last time although time has passed almost 2 months
but it seem like I'm the only one
waiting him
waiting miracle to happen.......
the feeling doesn't nice at all...